after so long, only half a year in NS nia. Sian to the max man.
Whole life seems to change since then, haix.
And on 30th Dec, a decision made by the army is gonna determine whether my ns life is gonna be better or die. Crossing my fingers on this LOL.
Kinda don't understand whats going on, only able to make speculations, people say : dont assume
But i don't have any answers, so can only assume.
It could be a misunderstanding(which i wish it was true), but it always show a different story which i wish i do not know instead.
Find it hard to express my thoughts at most times, perhaps its just that.
Probaly i don't understand you or that was your character all along. but whatever, getting sick of this shit, as time goes by, i realise that people do change. who said a leopard doesn't change its spots? bullshit seriously.
Think i also have been leading a lone life for 3 years(even though i miss poly life).
Friends huh?, u can have many friends but true friends? its like a rare thing like strike toto?
I have a friend who classifies his friends something like this. BFF>Friends>Tools>Rubbish.
I felt that this is stupid, but now beginning to understand what my friend meant.
I did change too though, after each disappointment i had over this period, really change my thinking too.
U feel like you just want to trash everything out and settle it once and for all, but you noe that's almost impossible.
dunnoe how to describe my feeling except for this, feeling damn f-up( don't wish to type it but no other way to describe for me LOL)
Ok book in time.
