Guess you took the easy way out.
But whatever, i don't care anymore, time to wake up!

Moving on to another stage of my life.
Going to work hard for my dreams.

Feeling disappointed.
I don't care what other people said about me or show some things to you.
At least give me a chance to say out my side of the story.
Why must you believe other people instead?
You should know i'm not that kind of person.

After that day. i know what i meant to most of you all.
No one knows what i'm going through.


And i hate empty promises.

Obviously i mean nothing to you.

Chinese New year soon. Have served for about 7 months. Time flies in a way.
Just hope no guard duty nonsense on weekends or holidays, gah!

Looked through some of the photos during poly times. Seriously miss the good old days hahaha.
Man, if 3 years of poly can pass so fast like that, how about the 2 years of ns?!?!

Think this year cny angbao lesser again(already pathetic). Someone pity me? LOL

And recently like to find good places to dine, think might be becoming a hobby for me lol.
Maybe should find one day go on a food spree.
Hope next year cny come fast, means nearer to ORD loooooooooooooooo haha.


Ok that's all.

A brand new year.
Most posts will come with new year resolutions. I'm not an exception too.

Actually already thought of my resolutions, but somehow this last week of dec made me rethink again. So decided not to post yet.

Got this feeling 2011 is not gonna be a pleasent year. Because its a year fully in army, omg man.
Just wanna quickly ord and get my plans in action =D

Every sunday i get this lousy feeling of booking in, very sian!

Ok short post.

Lastly, craving for korean food and xiaolongbao!

after so long, only half a year in NS nia. Sian to the max man.


Whole life seems to change since then, haix.

And on 30th Dec, a decision made by the army is gonna determine whether my ns life is gonna be better or die. Crossing my fingers on this LOL.



Kinda don't understand whats going on, only able to make speculations, people say : dont assume
But i don't have any answers, so can only assume.
It could be a misunderstanding(which i wish it was true), but it always show a different story which i wish i do not know instead.
Find it hard to express my thoughts at most times, perhaps its just that.

Probaly i don't understand you or that was your character all along. but whatever, getting sick of this shit, as time goes by, i realise that people do change. who said a leopard doesn't change its spots? bullshit seriously.

Think i also have been leading a lone life for 3 years(even though i miss poly life).
Friends huh?, u can have many friends but true friends? its like a rare thing like strike toto?

I have a friend who classifies his friends something like this. BFF>Friends>Tools>Rubbish.
I felt that this is stupid, but now beginning to understand what my friend meant.

I did change too though, after each disappointment i had over this period, really change my thinking too.
U feel like you just want to trash everything out and settle it once and for all, but you noe that's almost impossible.

dunnoe how to describe my feeling except for this, feeling damn f-up( don't wish to type it but no other way to describe for me LOL)

Ok book in time.

ORD lo!! (about 18 months more sian la!)

Section live firing tmr. kinda scared, what if people shoot me by accident? LOL
Just feeling quite bored. Sick of army life, full of consipracy in there.
Army life really seems meaningless in a way, hard to describe. haix.
Is like sometimes routine based, lack of flexibility at times. So irritating LOL.

People always say u will learn alot within this 2 years. Certain things maybe...
Really hope this 2 years in army will pass fast!

Guess the scar will always be there.

Getting ready to book in again.

Samuel aka Geek

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